Real Men Don’t Cry?

Yes, men cry but not when they lose in an argument or lose materialistic things.

Let me tell you few circumstances in my life where I shattered down into tears.

#Incident-1

GSOD (Google Season of Docs) a newly open-source competition started by google in 2020. Somehow I figured out about the event and joined an open-source organization called CHAOSS. I worked more than a month consistently and fixed many issues and participated actively in the meetings with the community.

Finally, I submitted the proposal for GSOD even before the deadline and stood out from the competitors. Finally, the day had arrived, it is somewhere around 3:30 AM and eagerly waiting for the results. As I performed very well, I had a lot of hope of getting selected into it.

But the tables have turned I was not selected and immediately shattered into tears😅 at 3:30ish in the morning.

#Incident-2

Everyone is fascinated to work in MNC’s and wants to start their career in a good way. So am I, and I got the opportunity to attend a company called Schlumberger.

The interview went so calm and cool, the interviewer is so friendly. The questions were completely from my resume and I answered all of them. I got pretty good feedback from him commenting perfect and fair enough for all of my answers and I believed that I am going to get this job.

I neither rejected nor selected but was on hold which eventually rejected me and yes after getting such pretty good feedback, how I couldn’t have expectations on it 😅

#Incident-3

This incident will be pretty interesting and funny. Don’t skip this incident.

A few days back I was selected for a company X and because of my over-enthusiasm, I told my HR that I got a new job with higher compensation.

Sharing that information made me lose my offer. A lot of calls and a lot of messages happened in this incident. ( Keeping everything in mind I am not revealing any names of companies or persons and this is the flow that happened in this incident ).

1. Me -> HR (Sharing the good news)
2. HR->Placement cell (Rage)
3. Placement cell -> Me (Rage)
4. Me -> Placement cell (Begging not to cancel my offer)
5. Placement cell ->HR (Cancelled my offer)
6. HR-> me (I hope you got info from placement cell)

The funny thing about this incident was I got selected initially and I was super happy but the very next day HR called the placement cell and the placement cell removed me from the selection list and screwed me.

I trusted two persons (HR and Placement cell) blindly in this incident and they screwed my life completely. I blindly gave the contacts of my placement cell to HR and the contact of my HR to the placement cell eventually after a few discussions and calls they successfully cancelled my offer and made me a buffoon.

This incident might be vague and confusing but this was the incident that rose my trust issues again.

But even after all this incident somewhere I believe in myself that I have the calibre to achieve my long term goals. Even if these low-lives were succeeded in screwing my opportunity now, they can’t stop me from achieving my long-term goals and I hope one day karma get backs to them with the speed of light and screw their lives miserably as they did mine.

In all these circumstances, I shattered into tears, depressed and felt lonely and miserably failed. But I didn’t shed tears casually, all the tears that I shed holds my story, my hard work, my passion.

We are all taught by society men shouldn’t cry, but when they cry there will be a reason, pain and a suffering story behind it. Remember it.